Like Eve To Cain
It was past
She wasn't alone in being obsessed with her son. They had a staff of fifty who did all their
work for free. In fact, they donated
their own money to the religion of his celebrity.
It was refreshing not to have to think of herself
anymore. Nora had always been bad at
that. Her whole life had been lived for
her husbands, and while it had gotten her nowhere quickly at least the burden
of her choices were not her own. Tommy
had demanded she take control of her own choices, live simply, live humbly,
live in worship of him. She did not find
this narcissistic. How could a deaf,
dumb, blind mute be a narcissist? A
better question: who would have thought that her inability to be calm, to be patient,
to follow the virtues so often ascribed to her personality would bring about
the necessary changes in her son?
Nothing had worked until she pitched a temper tantrum.
You told him not to
see anything. Not to hear anything...
She thought she had long put away that nagging voice in the
back of her head, reminding her of what she had insisted he do. If only Frank...
...But she had never blamed him. She didn't even blame herself anymore. Her son had magically found himself, and she
was overjoyed with it.
There was such little time to express that joy to her son
alone. There were always people around
- had been ever since the miracle. A wall of people between herself and her son. She disliked them but Frank insisted they
were necessary. They couldn't well run
this camp by themselves!
Tommy's
And it was all because of Tommy! Tommy, who had made
everything beyond perfect. Tommy, her reason for rising in the morning and sleeping at night. Tommy, the reason she hadn't taken her life
when her husband died.
The sudden sight of him made her want to swoon. He was always perfect in her eyes.
"Tommy?" He turned to her. Her heart nearly burst. "I had someone fill a tub for you."
He considered this.
"Thanks, mum. But I'd rather go out to the pool."
She frowned. "Do
you think it's all right?"
"Yes, I think it's all right." His smile was a dazzlement, but thunder rolled in his eyes. He couldn't have possibly heard her talking
to Frank during his childhood hears.
"Come tell me when the next train comes from Victoria Station."
She knew he would want to hear this news from her - only
her. She tried to make her smile as
dazzling as he disappeared down the hall among the grasping arms of his
followers. Alone, she nearly wept. He was a magnificent god! And yet...
This is for you,
Nora. He's doing it because of you, and
you bloody well know it. And if the
worst happens, it's your fault.
Nora calmed. She had
time to talk to him, now. To teach him
what every boy needed to know, what every young man yearned to hear from their
mothers. There would be years ahead to
figure these things out. It was a
mother's job to listen, now that he could talk.
Her job to speak, now that he could hear. Her job to be lovely, now that he could
see....